Weeble, Wobble and They Don’t Fall Down
Weeble, Wobble and They Don’t Fall Down…. that is exactly how I have felt over the last couple months. Gaining my footing and staying firm only to be knocked back the other way. Life is like that sometimes. Different situations have been ‘weebling’ and ‘wobbling’ all over the place. To where I have been just exhausted. Not really able to put my feelings into words. I’ve struggled with such different emotions-depression, frustration, jealousy, anger, self-pity… Now I say struggled because even at times when I thought I was going to drown in each of these emotions God brought me back. There were, and I know still will be times, when I had/have no words to pray, I just sat there speaking to God in my heart. Maybe I’m too hard on myself sometimes and sometimes not hard enough. Weeble, Wobble. I’ll admit, through this storm that I’m going through I have given in to sinful behavior. Being jealous and then avoiding that person, letting bitter set up. Thats a dangerous thing, because before you know it your mad at the person, having hard feelings toward them… This person has done nothing against you. Yep, I’m guilty. But the Holy Spirit quickly, very quickly convicted my spirit. And again I repented. I believe I’ve repented more over the past couple months then I ever have. #1 Because I recognize my sin, I recognize this is not what God has called me to be. #2 I recognize that if I continue this sinful adittude, HOW is Gods glory going to be able to be put on display?
Weeble. Wobble… This has been my life. If you know me really well, you know that I thrive in order, no chaos, stability.. So living in a weeble wobble is WAY out of my comfort zone. During my weeble wobbles the Holy Spirit has been showing me things about myself, some not so pretty things, then some things that are pleasing to God. Then on the other hand this situation has answered a prayer I’ve been praying.
*Warning another confession* Smile. I have been praying for something in particular. God has been working on it, I can see change. Well in one of my weeble wobble moments my flesh one me over momentarily… I allowed my negative attitude to squelch something. Holy Spirit again convicted me, I was in tears when the Holy Spirit opened my eyes to my actions. I asked for forgiveness. Again. Isn’t that great how we are forgiven as many times we ask with a true repentive heart? How that blesses my soul, makes me grin from ear to ear. God loves us so much.
Is the storm over? No, however, as I go through it I’m seeing change inside, outside and to a special person I share my life with. I know this is going down as a testimony to Gods greatness. He is on time. He is forgiving. He is the beginning. He is the ending. He is all time champion. He is love. He is… everything.
So if your in a weeble wobble storm, Know God is at the beginning, the middle, and at the end of that storm. Allow the Holy Spirit to show you what the purpose might be for this storm…Is it painful, yes… Is it hard, yes.. But the end is worth it all. Jeremiah talks about how God knew us BEFORE we were in our mothers womb! He says also in Jeremiah that he has GREAT PLANS for you and I! So God knows each weeble and wobble…
Listen, be still and KNOW HE IS GOD….
Even though I weeble and wobble, I know the Lord loves me. He sees my heart. A heart that is hungry for him…
